To find my new xanga site, the hints are as followed:

1. "Bear" and "Polaris"

2. The answer is in romanji.

3. When searching only the "Z" is capitalized. 

Have fun and goodbye. 

I'm feeling so much better. It almost seems surreal. 

Took the Sanity Score quiz. Recieved a 92% out of 100%... 5 areas of concern... 3 were no surprise to me: General Coping, Depression, and Self-Esteem. Two I didn't expect were Obsessive-Compulsions and Borderline Traits. 

*laughs* I feel... much better than I did last night and most of today. By 6:00 p.m. I started to feel better... but I still have those decisions to make. Tomorrow I'll go to the AT&T store to change my cell number. Next will be my AIM. But I can't handle these feelings anymore... However, at the same time... at least I'm not alone... and that's what will make the difference. 

I'll purge myself of unnecessary relationships and feelings that are now with those relationships.

In the front bedroom of my Grandmother's house, you quietly opened the door to see my sleeping form covered in a mass of green comforter up to my bangs, easily dreaming through the early morning. You sit on the edge beside me, but I don't stir until I feel your hand on my head. Groggily, I open my eyes to see a wonderful and beautiful face staring down at me. I smile as best I can, mumble something completely incoherent and sweet, and unconsciously place my hand on yours. I can't remember if you said anything in return to me, but what I do remember is the warmth of your cheek has you pressed it against mine after you had leaned into me. The softness of your golden hair on my fingers and how it brushed my face felt all too real...

Content, I rolled back into the sheets, head barely cushioned by my pillow hoping to sleep more... Then I woke up. *sticks tongue out* It was such a wonderful way to wake up. ^,^ I hope that I'm your best birthday present for today. I mean... you surely made my day!